I need to connect !!!

It happened one day:

Scene 1:
I was not sure that my prepaid cell plan was the best for me. Hence i went to cellular service provider's gallery to know what other plans they had, including billing. I had my boyfriend along with me. As I saw the monthly rental of the lowest billing scheme, I said to him: "I don't call that many people neither do many call me. The only two people I communicate with are my mom & you. I guess I should carry on with my current plan. I don't need to upgrade!"
He just shrugged his shoulders in agreement & we left the gallery.

Scene 2:
As we were en route to a restaurant for lunch, I had a real good fight with my boyfriend over something silly. We started with our lunch in huff puff silence. In frustration, he said something stupid like: "These fights are turning to be stressful & unless we act on them, they will char our relation to the extent that you might walk away...the way I know you. I would then have a very a short life, if it was without you!". The moment he said this, my eyes brimmed with tears. Forget living without him, I cannot even dare to think of such a situation! I realized my life was so very focused on him, dependent on him! It took him a hell number of his stupid PJs & sorrys to bring me back to normal, albeit with puffed eyes & red nose! :)

Scene 3:
after lunch we headed towards his office as he had to mail something urgent. As there was no electricty, we were doing some TP with his office friends in his office, waiting for the currents to flow. I was in the middle of a conversation, when i got a message from my close friend saying she had lost her brother last week. I was very shocked. i immediately called her up & told her I would be there. Everyone around started asking me questions about her brother. I could not answer them sufficiently well as I did know her family well. I was embarrassed to admit to my guy that though I treasured her as a close friend, communication from my side was truly pathetic...almost once month. I could not call her a close friend exactly but she has been special for me as we connect really well.

Scene 4:
i was on my way to my friend's house for offering my condolences & to try to understand how things had happened so suddenly. I set thinking of all the people whom I was not in communication with. There were a couple of people whom I shared some good bonds with. Earlier I used to call them up regularly every week, or almost everyday to some & get frequent calls from them too. After the 26/7 deluge, I got somehow mentally stressed & lazy & did not call anyone often. I called up my boyfriend to discuss this. I confessed that my whole life in recent months had been focused on him & my mom. This was good though not very healthy. These were people who had given me emotional support through my troublesome times & were there when I wanted them to be. i did not bother to know what was happening to others. This was precisely why I was shocked to know that one of my close friends had left her job of teaching & was home due to some tension. I had no idea as what was happening with others: what jobs were they in, their marriage plans, new shopping, any other happenings in their lives...I was absolutely clueless. I then decided: I am gonna get myself a billing plan & call these people often...no matter if only for a Hi.

Next time I want to be there when my friend needs me!!!

I need to connect...do you???